| 013: Sunday, March 25, 2012: 5PM EST |
[Sunday
March 25th, 2012 at 10:35am] |
[private: readable by friends and family... not Trick]
So, um... TRICK ASKED ME TO MOVE IN WITH HIM!!!! !!!! !!!! !
There are not enough exclamation points in the world to express the excitement that I am feeling in this moment!
We spent the morning looking at apartment listings. It's exciting, right? When he asked, I thought he would... I dunno... back out? He actually wants me to look with him, though. Like... we're finding a place together instead of him finding a place and me just staying there all the time.
I'm not picky, but I'm really, really hoping we end up with a pool. I would love to swim every afternoon... well, when it's not cold. If it was an indoor pool, though? I would totally evolve and grow gills.
Anyway... EXCITEMENT! I HAS IT!
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Best. Day. Ever.
I think this might even be better than the day I found my room filled with cookies. Maybe. I dunno. That is a hard day to top.
[Trick]
I'm starving. We should find food.
[/Trick]
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| 012: (backdated) Wednesday, February 29, 2012: 9AM EST |
[Thursday
March 1st, 2012 at 12:09pm] |
Patrick McMillan is a god.
Yesterday, I came home to find that he'd filled my dorm room with cookies. Let me repeat that... he'd FILLED MY DORM ROOM WITH COOKIES.
It's like he knows me or something.
Is there any wonder as to why I'm in love with him?
So... cookies for breakfast... cookies for lunch... sensible dinner.
Best. Surprise. Ever.
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| 011: Monday, November 7, 2011: 10AM EST |
[Monday
November 7th, 2011 at 1:32pm] |
[private: readable by Lauryn and Tiffani]
Clay told me that he loved me. I'd been wanting to hear him say that for months, but he waited until I was leaving for New York. Literally. He told me the night before. He asked me to stay with him.. as though that was an option. I was so mad. I couldn't understand why he would wait until the last possible second.. until I couldn't possibly stay. He told me the night of my birthday.. as though the change in age made all the difference in the world.
And Trick.. continues to be amazing. We aren't official, but he treats me like I'm his girlfriend. We're always texting and calling one another. We're always hanging out during the weekends.. during all of our free time, really. I'm not kidding. I have trouble sleeping in my own bed because I've spent far too many nights sleeping with him in his. It takes me a little over an hour to get to class some mornings, but it's worth it, you know?
I think I'm in love with them.. both of them. Trick was supposed to be, as horrible as it sounds, a good time, but he's more than that. And Clay.. is Clay.. he's my Clay.
Ugh. Look at the mess I've gotten myself into! On the bright side, neither of them are pushing for a relationship. Technically, I'm just friends with the both of them. I don't know what I'm going to do if I ever have to make a choice… and I hear polygamy isn't even legal in Utah anymore!
Enough whining! I should be paying attention.
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[Clay]
How was your weekend?
[/Clay]
[Trick]
What are you doing after class?
[/Trick]
College isn't so bad. It's a lot of work, but it's really no different than high school. Cooler parties, though.
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| 010: Tuesday, August 9, 2011: 11:59PM EST |
[Tuesday
August 9th, 2011 at 10:56am] |
Having so much fun. Hanging with our new friends... Luke and I'm sure those other guys have names, too. I think Tiffani has a crushhhhh on the one in the hat. Just sayin'.
I'll be back in Atlanta late on Saturday. SERIOUSLY missing my peoples.
LOVE TO EVERYONE! WISH YOU WERE HERE! MUST DANCE!
[OOC: Becca is a little intoxicated.]
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| 009: (backdated) Wednesday, August 3, 2011: 11PM EST |
[Saturday
August 6th, 2011 at 3:17pm] |
[private: readable by Tiffani and Lauryn]
I miss him a lot. Like… a lot, a lot. Like… so much.
This is ridiculous. We're friends… just friends… who have really amazing sex… and share a bed… and… THIS IS SO STUPID! I shouldn't miss him so damned much! I won't even be able to text him when we leave for this cruise.
And Clay… I don't even know. I still love like him a lot, but I think I love like Trick, too. I mean, it's an easy choice… or there's not even a choice. Trick wants me. Clay doesn't. Trick hasn't asked me to be his girl. I just… I don't know. Boys are beyond stupid. I should become a lesbian or something.
Move-In Day is August 28. My birthday is August 31. I don't want to move to New York before I celebrate my 18th birthday. I want to be with all of my friends. I'm not going to know anyone in New York. Well, anyone other than Trick and Ethan. Right now, I'm not even sure I want to move to New York at all. It's so far away from home, and I'm going to miss everyone so much. I won't be able to see any of my friends or my family.
This is completely ridiculous. This whole… emotional nonsense the female body goes through once a month.
It should be physically impossible for one person to be in love with two people. Teleportation should also be an option. If it was, I could visit home whenever I wanted to.
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So, I got an email from one of my future roommates. Her name is Lisa. She seems really nice.
We've been given a triple in Hayden Hall. I never expected to get Hayden Hall. From what I understand, it's known as the "party dorm" and is insanely popular. On one hand… parties! On the other hand… WHEN ARE WE GOING TO STUDY? Luckily, Hayden Hall has it's own dining hall. I was really wanting that. Move-In Day is August 28. I'm kind of looking forward to it.
In other news… CRUISE! This is easily the best thing I've ever spent money on. Seriously. So excited.
[Trick]
I miss you. Hey.
[/Trick]
[Clay]
I know it's late, but what are you doing?
[/Clay]
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| 008: Sunday, July 3, 2011: 4PM EST |
[Sunday
July 3rd, 2011 at 6:43pm] |
NYU. New York University.
Move-In Day is August 28. Classes start September 6.
That means I have less than two months to get ready to move over 800 miles.
Which is, of course, why I've been looking at taking a cruise..
This is where I turn to my best friend.
Tiffani, where do you want to go? I'm thinking about blowing my graduation money on a cruise! As I would be taking you along, I need your input!!
[Clay]
What are you doing tonight?
[/Clay]
[Trick]
What are you doing tomorrow?
[/Trick]
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| 007: Sunday, June 12, 2011: 10AM EST |
[Sunday
June 12th, 2011 at 5:25pm] |
Alright.
My parents have been pushing me to make a decision. It's taken me a couple of weeks, but I've finally made that decision.
And...
Are you ready? Are you ready?
Wait for it...
Here it goes...
My friends had better be planning my going away party because I'm moving to New York in the fall!
I sincerely hope that NYU is ready for Becca Carr!
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| 006: Wednesday, May 25, 2011: 12PM EST |
[Wednesday
May 25th, 2011 at 1:55pm] |
Prom is Saturday.
I don't have a date.
Lame, right?
On the bright side, Trick asked me to go to a wedding with him. The reception will have music and dancing. That's pretty much the same thing... kinda.
Long story short, I'm looking forward to this weekend! Why isn't it Friday, yet?
[private: readable by Tiffani and Lauryn]
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't sad about missing my last prom. I'll be doing something fun, at least.
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| Sunday, May 15, 2011: 11:30AM EST |
[Sunday
May 15th, 2011 at 11:36am] |
[private to Tiffani and Lauryn]
So.. Trick is kind of amazing. He was a complete gentleman. We held hands and talked and... it was SO EASY. I knew where I stood with him. It was OBVIOUS that he liked me... that he liked me as more than a friend. I knew how to act. I adore Clay, but it's so... I never know how to act. I like him so much, but I know that he regrets it when we... do things. I don't want to be the girl he regrets.
I'm going out with Trick again. I enjoy spending time with him, and I don't feel guilty for kissing him good night.
[/private]
I had a great night. It's looking like I'm going to have a great day. If you need me, I'll return all calls and texts when I get home tonight. Love ya!
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| 004: Thursday, May 12, 2011: 5PM EST |
[Thursday
May 12th, 2011 at 4:03pm] |
I've been avoiding the subject, but my parents are really pushing me to make a decision. Help?
I've received acceptance letters from UCLA, NYU, LSU, GT, and GSU. Which college should I choose? Which city sounds more appealing? I was thinking that I would go to GSU or GT, but I'm not so sure now.
How awesome would it be to live in New York or Los Angeles?
Like I said, I need help! I don't know what to choose!
I really just want Clay to tell me to stay here in Georgia with him, but I don't think that's going to happen, so I need to choose a freaking college without taking my feelings for him into consideration.
[Tiffani]
How lame is it that I want Clay to ask me to stay? Tell me to stop being so lame. You do not make life decisions based on this sort of relationship. Tell me this.
[/Tiffani]
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| 003: Friday, April 8, 2011: 4:30PM EST |
[Saturday
April 9th, 2011 at 12:22am] |
I am an idiot. That is all.
[private: readable by Tiffani and Lauryn]
I keep... I don't know... throwing myself at him. I'm practically saving myself for him. I don't want to go out with other boys. They ask and I turn them down. I turn them down even when I'm not sure that I'm going to see him.
This is so stupid. I'm stupid.
Of course, they don't make blondes cuter than her.
So stupid. Ugh.
I have to stop this. Just friends. Just. Friends. That's all he wants. I need to make sure that's all we are.
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| 002: Thursday, January 13, 2010: 1PM EST |
[Thursday
January 13th, 2011 at 4:26pm] |
[private: readable by Tiffani and Lauryn]
Alright, so..
Clay and I hooked up on New Years Eve.
It was just as amazing as the last time. We'd been drinking, of course, but.. I swear, no one has ever affected me the way he does. It's ridiculous. Just holding his hand is.. I can't describe it.
I have no idea how he can resist this. I think about him all the time. I spend all week looking forward to the weekends because we usually spend some time together. We don't even kiss every time we're together. I don't care. Just being near him..
I like him a lot. The sex is amazing, when we have it, but I'm cool with going slow. We don't have to have sex. We could.. I don't know.. we could wait to have sex. My birthday is in August. I'll be eighteen. It wouldn't be easy, but we could wait. I know he likes me.. he wouldn't occasionally kiss me if he didn't, right? If my age bothers him so much, we could be together without being together.. right?
I don't know. I just.. I don't want him to move on to some girl closer to his own age because of a measly seven months. It's not even illegal!
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[private to Clay]
You + Me + Friday Night = Movie Night?
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Sooooo ready for the weekend. Anyone else ready for the weekend?
What are we doing Saturday, Tiff? Something fun, I hope! Tell me that we're doing something fun!
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| 001: (backdated) Monday, November 1, 2010: 5PM EST |
[Tuesday
November 9th, 2010 at 10:17pm] |
This weekend was pretty great. It's a shame we don't celebrate Halloween all the time.
[private to Clay]
I know you don't want me to, but I keep thinking about you...
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